I didn't need to tell you life is tough. Chances are if you're reading my blog, you already know it.
I need a break. I need a break from worry, anxiety, stress, finances, side effects, depression, illness.
I have been praying for "us all". I read somewhere that if you wish and or pray for good for everyone that will include yourself.
I hope no one minds if I vent a little......
I don't feel like I can take good enough care of my dogs. I feel guilty. I know things will turn around but it's so hard. They are eating properly and good food, but they have issues they all need taken care of. I am not about to give them away because I know the situation will turn around. It's just a matter of time. All poop may hit the fan before relief comes though. It's just so hard.
I am still not well enough to leave the house. I am finally up to my 2 doses of Alinia a day. It affected me at first, minor herxing and then side effects from the Alinia. Even if I felt good enough to leave my house I can't because of the GI issues. Wondering how I am going to make it 1 hour and 15 minutes each way in a car to the doctor. If all is well with me health wise, I plan to lay on the beach for a while that day as well. He is 10 blocks from the ocean.
I am rambling and bouncing around mentally. I am worried about my husband and his health. It's not good. The added stress and depression is not helping him. I feel helpless and don't know what to do to help him. I watched him breathing last night when he fell asleep. Kept checking with my finger to make sure I could feel him breathing through his nostrils.